How To Destroy Yourself by BJ Rosalind | Poem No. 21 (NPM2017)

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How to Destroy Yourself
by BJ Rosalind

Step one. Be delirious over treacherous memories. Find any face in a sea of millions and replace it with his. Use this one as a target to release your arrow of imagination.

Step two. Take 5 steps closer and retreat one foot backward when you realize the distance might be too close for you liking. Straighten your arm perfectly and grip the bow tight. Hold on to the faith that all your imagination is indeed reality.

Step three. Release your arrow, forget reality. Let it melt like raindrops sliding down your car window. Think of him and hold your target’s hand, take one step closer and wrap yourself around his warmth. Breathe his smell, listen to his thundering heartbeats, make yourself vulnerable. It’s him. It’s your old him.

Step four. Cling to him like the after droplets hang off the tips of your hair. Gush about how cute that kitten you saw in the pet shop when you cross the streets with him. Laugh about the looks you receive from people with him. He’s real, isn’t he? He’s not just figment of your imagination.

Step five. Tell yourself you’ve fallen in love again with your new companion every time you see a mirror. Now, believe it. This is the calm before the storms, do not prepare your sails or any lifeboats to bring you home safe.

Step six. He will confront you and doubt you. There are cracks in the mirror now. Convince him that you are very much so in love with him – that you’ve never used him even if that on itself falls dead on your own ears. You can’t bear to see him go, can you? You love him. You do. You do. You do. You-

Step seven. Let him leave. He deserves someone better, remember? You were never meant to live a fairy tale life. Look at your hands and see how everything you touch decays in a matter odd seconds, if not months. Write a post-it to yourself about how you damaged the boy with crystal clear eyes and Cheshire cat smile, trying to redeem yourself but only falling head first once again.

Check out Fragmented Bliss where this poem can be found over at Amazon and Book Depository. 

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Beauty’s Nest by Robin Coste Lewis | Poem No. 20 (NPM2017)

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Beauty’s Nest
by Robin Coste Lewis

Beauty’s nest
renders the body
mute. An elegance
so inconceivable,
it’s violent. Extreme,
It hurts
the heart to see
something so vast
and deep
can also be made of
dirt.

And if it can be
of the earth, the body
ponders, might
such a landscape
exist also within me?

The four of you stand
silent, uniformed on
its rim,
while the
imagination tries
to conceive all the
things
it is still too dark
to see.

You jump back
into your wide tan
Ford
and begin to drive
again-again-past
all the motels, and
their signs
which, were it not
just
after midnight, you
know –
and could see – say
WHITES ONLY.

 

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bone by Yrsa Daley-Ward | Poem No. 19 (NPM2017)

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bone

by Yrsa Daley-Ward

From One

who says, “Don’t cry.

You’ll like it after a while.”

and Two who tells you thank-you

after the fact and can’t look at your face.

To Three who pays for your breakfast

and a cab home

and your mother’s rent.

To Four

who says,

“But you felt so good

I didn’t know how to stop.”

To Five who says giving your body

is tough

but something you do very well.

To Six

Who smells of tobacco

and says “Come on, I can feel that 

you love this.”

To those who feel bad in the morning yes,

some feel bad in the morning

and sometimes they tell you

you want it

and sometimes you think that you do.

Thank heavens you’re resetting

ever

setting and

resetting

How else do you sew up the tears?

How else can the body survive?

Get this poetry book for free today Amazon Kindle (I don’t know for how long it’s free so grab it while you can.) It is also available over at Book Depository. 

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Broken Wishbones and Empty Spaces by Pyrokardia: Book Review

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 This book is not for healing,
it is a shelter for your breaking
you will leave
but you’ll leave whole.

This prolific collection of poems; “Broken Wishbones & Empty Spaces” explains what it means to be broken, how it feels to be broken, and how it feels to thirst for love while being broken. It is a book that understands and justifies the melancholy in love. Yet amidst this hurt, it still acknowledges love as a good thing, if only we could find it, give it, and take it the right way.

“Broken Wishbones & Empty Spaces” heals a reader simply by acknowledgment. It skillfully teaches how to gracefully bear love’s forlorn.

Pyrokardia’s second collection of poetry couldn’t have been written in a better way and it is a perfect comrade and companion to his first collection titled “A Beautiful Mess”.

Publisher: CreateSpace Independent Publishing Platform

Date of Publication: January 22, 2017

Date Read: January 2017

Source: Kindle version provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.

Get Your Copy Here: Amazon

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This book is an attestation that though love may cause us inexplicable hurt, it also brings life to us – redemption.

This poetry collection was sent to me in exchange of an honest review. As a lover of poetry I devoured this book like no other. Broken Wishbones and Empty Spaces is an attestation that though love may cause us inexplicable hurt, it also brings life to us – redemption. Pyrokardia’s words resonate grief from being broken yet was also a reassurance that you’ll come out of it if not better, then renewed. His poetry is something people could easily relate to and identify with. If you enjoyed Rupi Kaur’s milk and honey and Amanda Lovelace’s The Princess Saves Herself in This One, then I bet you would appreciate Broken Wishbones and Empty Spaces as well. The tone of this book is very reminiscent of the ones we often see on Instagram or Tumblr, however the author was able to put his own heart into it which I appreciate a whole lot. It’s just an affirmation that love is universal, we may have different experiences but the pain is all the same. All is fair in love, so they say.

I could recommend this poetry book for new lovers of poetry. Pyrokardia’s works are perfectly digestible and on point. Words used are simple yet have its own impact. It is definitely a good place to start when one would want to immerse himself to the beauty of poetry. I can’t wait to see this author bloom in this craft since there is really a lot of potential.

 

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“We fell
into the book of love
stumbling through the pages
filling up the paragraphs
creating new chapters
right till the very last page
where we fell
out of the book
breaking into pieces
as we fell apart.”

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Me by Charles Bukowski | Poem No. 18 (NPM2017)

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me

by Charles Bukowski

women don’t know how to love

she told me.

you know how to love

but women just want to

leech.

I know this because I’m a

woman.

hahaha I laughed.

so don’t worry about your breakup

with Susan

because she’ll just leech onto

somebody else.

we talked a while longer

then I said goodbye

hungup

went into the crapper and

took a good beershit

mainly thinking, well,

I’m still alive

and have the ability to expel

wastes from my body.

and poems.

and as long as that’s happening

I have the ability to handle

betrayal

loneliness

hangnail

clap

and the economic reports in the

financial section

with that

I stood up

wiped

flushed

then thought:

it’s true:

I know how to love

I pulled up my pants and walked

into the other room. 

You can get a copy of Love is A Dog From Hell from Book Depository and Amazon.

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The 14th of February by Eunice Moral | Poem No. 17 (NPM2017)

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The 14th of February

by Eunice Moral

You left me with a broken heart
that could never be mended
A gaping hole that can never be filled
A heart engulfed in coldness
that no amount of heat can thaw
A longing that will now forever be unrequited

Earlier that day I had this dead weight on my shoulders
There was this gnawing feeling I just can’t simply shake off
But I put on the mask of bravery, it was something I was accustomed
to wearing whenever I talk to you.
Each night before I go to sleep I remove the bravery mask
and cry myself to sleep, numbing the ever present pain.
Promise me no more crying you said while touching my cheeks.
I cannot promise that was my silent reply

Mom called that morning, she said it’s bad
From the scale of bad to death she was pretty euphemistic
It had always been bad, it never got better
So when she said it, I was confused by the worry in her voice
It couldn’t be what I was thinking, it just couldn’t be, I am not ready yet.
I will never be ready.

Room 202: I was standing just right outside the white door,
holding on to the useless doorknob who couldn’t support the heavy feeling in my chest
Brave Mask.
I opened the door with a smile but with evident worry in my eyes.
I immediately greeted you Happy Valentine’s day, an I love you and a peck on your left cheek
You said Happy Valentine’s and I love you too.
You held me by the nape a second too long
And between those labored breaths and that smile reserved for me, I knew it was time.
No. No. No.
Turmoil of emotion swirled inside me.
The Brave Mask slowly slipping off.

Your last breath was the one thing I wanted to erase in my head
It was etched there, vivid and all too painful to bear
You promised me a lot of things Papa
But you didn’t keep them
And here I am trying to tip toe at the wake you have left
Here I am trying to picture the future without you
Here I am watching my very heart break every single time.

They say things get easier
That I would learn to accept that you are gone
But what they don’t know is a part of me died with you
and I will never be whole ever again.

 

 

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The Opposite of You by Rachel Higginson : Book Review

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Synopsis from Goodreads:

 I’ve sworn off men.

All men.

Famous last words, right? You’re expecting some epic tale of reluctant love and my dramatic change of heart? Well, you’re not going to get it.

I’m stubborn. And headstrong. And I’ve just survived the worst three years of my life. After escaping an abusive boyfriend to live in hostels and cheap hotels while I worked my way across Europe, I’ve come to two conclusions.

The first? Now that I’m back home, I’m going to squander my expensive culinary degree on a food truck that caters to the late night drunk crowd.

The second? I’m going to prove to the bastard across the plaza that my street food is better than his fussy five course monstrosities.

Killian Quinn might be Food and Wine’s Chef to Watch Out For. He might have a Michelin Star. He might have every food critic in the city wrapped around his too-large fingers. But he’s also pretentious and unbearably arrogant and the very opposite of me.

So he can keep his unsolicited advice and his late night visits and his cocky smiles. I want none of it. Or him.

I want the opposite.

Publisher: Reckless Siren Publishing

Date of Publication: March 30, 2017

Date Read: April 2017

No. of Pages: 302 Pages

Source: Digital copy provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.

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This book will make you hungry and entertained, but mostly hungry. 

I have not read a book about chefs or anything about the culinary world or maybe I have, it’s just not really the focus of the book. So you can just imagine my delight when this book is solely about food, cooking and uhm hot-bearded-with-to-die-for-body chef. Something definitely new to me. Opposite of You is narrated by Vera Delane, a chef who had a toxic relationship she’s trying so hard to ran away from. Starting from scratch and few bucks in her bank account, she tried to get back on her feet by opening up her own business – a food truck, just across one of the most sought after restaurant – Lilou. Whose head chef is, aha you got it right, the hot-bearded-with-to-die-for-body chef – Killian Quinn. Seriously, just by the sound of his name he’ll send you over the edge. You are sure in for some wild competition between these two, and of course some cute and witty banters for a flare of flavor and touch of drama. A perfect recipe for a cutesy love story if you ask me. And the SALT hahaha I think that was my fave part from this book. It was so witty and funny, props to Rachel for coming up with it. I also appreciate that this book didn’t have the instalove that I dread so much. It was haters turn to lovers type of book – the kind of trope I live for. 

The Opposite of You is more than what meets the eye. It had depth and lesson. It is relevant and also thought-provoking. The characters were very distinct from each other. Vera Delane (which by the way I love love love that name) is our female protagonist who had to go through a lot just to get to where she is. Im surprised how I was able to relate to her character in a very personal level. Her character was realistic, reading her is like talking to an old friend, you can’t help but sympathize with her.  Her character is someone you really root for. The only issue I had with Vera was she was constantly second-guessing herself, thinking that she ain’t good enough and that she doesn’t deserve the good things that was happening to her, it was kind of tiring to read at some point, as it has become repetitive to a fault. Killian Quinn on the other hand had a strong personality, brooding – yes, but also has a soft side – something I really like in male protagonists. Killian’s backstory is also noteworthy, I loved how it was well played-out and explained how his character came about. Killian is also the type of guy that had a lot of goodness underneath all his smug facade. He was a keeper, if I ain’t making myself clear yet. Haha.

I also would like to commend the author for the research she put into writing this book, seriously those ingredients and recipes and how to prepare the food – it was amazing. It is as if the characters are talking in language they only know about but presented it to the readers like it was as normal as breathing. The author sure know what she was talking about when she wrote Vera and Killian’s story. It’s either she’s a chef or she really did an impeccable research on the matter, either way it was brilliant. This was first my Rachel Higginson book but definitely not the last. I cant wait to read all her other works and see how can she come up with stories that are entertaining and well-researched. I loved that this book was also about self-discovery and learning how to love and value yourself more. Definitely something I would recommend to everyone, 4 Amazing Yes To Everything Stars for this book!

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“You keep saying words like crazy and insane and risky, but Vera, the best things in life are all of those things. You can’t reap big rewards if you don’t take big risks.”

Rachel Higginson, The Opposite of You

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