Best Books I Read in 2021 | Nerdy Talks

Another year in books has ended. I was not able to read much books last 2021, and I am afraid the number of books I have read keeps on dwindling down each year. I don’t often say this, but I miss my old self, the one who gets lost in a book for hours on end. Life and responsibilities keep getting in the way, on top of that the pandemic fatigue is so real. It’s like everyone is in limbo. Okay I will stop here, don’t want this to become a negative post. Without further rants, here are the best books aka books that got me through the pandemic.

1. People We Meet on Vacation by Emily Henry

I took my sweet time reading People We Meet On Vacation, I was savoring it. I was savoring the slow burn between Alex and Poppy, how everyone knows they love each other more than friends except them. Friends to lovers have been a hit or miss for me. I mostly shy away from this trope, but boy oh boy, People We Meet On Vacation made it so perfect and so good I now crave for stories like it! Emily Henry without a doubt is an exceptional writer. I am now an Emily Henry devotee haha!

A love story spanning 12 years. I love the writing style, jumping from past summers to the present one and how it all melded together into this utterly beautiful and engaging masterpiece. It has tons of layers to it, with facets of family and childhood and how all these factors contributed to the characteristics of Alex and Poppy. I commend that it isn’t one sided, like say for an instance, the guy would always woo the girl or bend over backwards to meet her wants. I think recently published romance novels is already shying away from the typical damsel in distress stories, or at least that’s what I’ve been reading lately. I love that this book made the female protagonist brave and independent, still with flaws of her own of course, but her character was painted in such a way that is relevant, relatable and definitely realistic. Alex on the other hand had issues of his own, something he dealt with ever since childhood. There was this paragraph in the book where Alex explained why he’s scared, and everything just clicked. Emily Henry portrayed her characters in a multidimensional way – they are vulnerable, yet they also have this courage within them. 

This opposites attract, friends to lovers book surely has become an all-time favorite. I cried so hard towards the end, even lied to my boyfriend I would go sleep but the truth was I stayed until 2am to finish it haha. It’s not the usual light-hearted read, but it was so much deeper and emotional, without losing the charisma of a good romcom. If there’s one book you need to read before the year ends, People We Meet On Vacation is definitely it!

2. If You Leave Me by Crystal Hana Kim

Honest and raw. 

If You Leave Me is deeply moving and heart wrenching. Set in the 1950s during the war, this book highlighted how circumstances force people into choices they are going to pay for in the future. A multilayered novel with perfectly fleshed out characters. If You Leave Me will have you feeling multitudes of emotions but majority of it is sadness. There is not quite like a book which put to light characters’ unhappiness like If You Leave Me. That’s the main theme in which the book revolved around – characters’ unhappiness and how they lived around and through it, each emanating from different reasons but are ultimately interrelated and when melded together resulted into a devastating end. Not the easiest read, this is not a book about hope but of despair and fleeting happiness, and sometimes that’s what we need – to be grounded, to relate to human’s pains to be able to understand our own selves. If You Leave Me never sugarcoated sufferings, nor romanticized the lives of the characters. It was honest and raw. 

This book has now become a favorite. It spoke in volumes, with utterly impressive layer and unlikable characters. It had no reservations being transparent. Kim created stunning portrait of heartbreak, forbidden love, woes of a mother, whims of a child and the staggering weight of unhappiness. I have savored this book and never rush myself into finishing it. I only read it when my heart is in it and that makes the reading experience more enjoyable and worthwhile.

3. The Bromance Book Club by Lyssa Kay Adams

Another book added to my favorites list! The Bromance Book Club has the most unique premise, and I am living for that. The book follows the story of Gavin and Thea who are in the brink of divorce. Then enters the Bromance Book Club, a book club which aims to help guys fix their relationship by adhering to the wisdom of romance books! Isn’t that the most brilliant premise? I thought so too. Nothing quite like a romance book to understand women more and how they want to be treated. Truly, if men read more romance books in their lives, we will all be living in peace and harmony, HAHA!

What I especially love about this book is the funny banters between the guys. The book is a break from the typical manly, all brooding and cold portrayal of men in books. I love the friendship between all of them, how they support each other and how they call out toxic behaviors. Ugh if only all men are like them haha. It was so much fun to read, I caught myself laughing more than I thought I would. 

While I am not a super fan of second chance romance, this one definitely is an exception. I love that it tackled their backstory and how it played an important part in salvaging their marriage. I also appreciate the juxtaposition of Thea and Gavin’s story to that of Benedict and Irena’s. I love that kind of writing style – never boring and will keep you turning the pages. So if you need something fun and light but also something that doesn’t only scratch the surface, this book is definitely for you! Can’t wait to read more in this series! 

4. Nightfall by Eliza Victoria

Brimming with social commentaries, Night Fall is not one to miss. 

I cannot believe I only have come to discover Eliza Victoria’s works just recently, that’s on me and I vow to rectify that. Eliza Victoria’s world building is unparalleled. She was able to conjure a world in which humanity comes at a costly price. Night Fall follows a series of characters who are interrelated to one another set in a futuristic Philippines where biomodification technology are widely embraced but much like any society only the privileged and the rich get to have it, while the poor continues to be at disadvantage The existence of social hierarchy have been one of the focal point of the book. The only issue I have is the entire cohesiveness of the story, I felt like I have missed out on a lot of small details that would have made the book more engaging. The flow of the story isn’t as solid as I hoped it would be, nevertheless the whole plot and the writing style definitely made up for it. 

I feel like this is a book that is best experienced as a tv series. Hello, Netflix pick up on this. It has all the quality for a great tv series. I feel like the characters will be more fleshed out that way. I have been reading reviews that Night Fall can be likened to an episode of Black Mirror, and I can see why. Night Fall has the elements of weirdness and darkness coupled with a deep analysis of modern society and the advantages and most especially disadvantages of cutting edge technology. Night Fall examines human frailties amidst progressive technological advancements. Definitely recommend this book! 

5. The Brown Sisters Series by Talia Hibbert

Get A Life Chloe Brown

What a perfect read! I immediately wanted to reread it. 

Isn’t it too obvious that I like it so much, from all my constant raving down to posting my just cried look on IG stories, hahah I am pretty sure I made it crystal clear how much I adoooore this book. 

Get A Life, Chloe Brown follows the story of Chloe Brown, a posh plus-sized black woman with fibromyalgia who decided to put more thrill into her life by making a list of things she wants to accomplish. Now enters swoony Redford Morgan, who will help her tick items from her list. But did I mention they loathe each other in the beginning? Hahaha you know how much of a sucker I am when it comes to haters to lovers trope! 

Equal parts, funny, tender and adorable, Get A Life, Chloe Brown easily made it to my fave books of all time list. There’s nothing like a book you can somehow relate to. I love that it embraces body positivity. Get A Life Chloe Brown is ultimately a celebration of bravery and taking a hold of one’s life despite devastating setbacks. The writing style was just perfect, the characters’ banters, that of between Chloe and Red, and Chloe and her sisters are just funny and amazingly well-written. I love how Talia Hibbert was able to thread on mental illness with caution and understanding, not making the characters focused on their illness but painted them in a way that they are so much more than what they carry. 

Get A Life Chloe Brown’s big altercation was played right and not blown out of proportions which I appreciated alot. That freaking chapter made me bawl my eyes out. It was so elegantly written, so beautiful that I actually felt the characters’ pain. Talia Hibbert did an amazing job in threshing out the characters. It was the kind of book you never thought you needed. Don’t sleep on this book series, it might just be your next fave book! Reading a Talia Hibbert novel will surely have you craving for more!

Take A Hint Dani Brown

Sweet, swoony and steamy! Definitely a new fave!

It’s official Talia Hibbert is now a favorite author. Loving her books is just the easiest thing in the world, but I couldn’t pick which one I love more between Get A Life Chloe Brown and Take A Hint Dani Brown. Both are amazing in their own right, but have to admit Take A Hint Dani Brown is way steamier than its predecessor. 

Take A Hint Dani Brown follows the story of Dani, a nerdy workaholic who is a commitment phobe who for some amazing stroke of luck fall into a fake dating hole with Zafir Ansari, a Pakistani ex-rugby player who loves reading romance novels. 

Fake dating and some sort of office romance trope, it is a book sent by romance gods to give the word romantic an otherworldly meaning. What I love about Talia Hibbert’s writing is its ability to be direct to the point, no unnecessary drama or things being blown out of proportion. Characters fall in love, have a huge fight or misunderstanding, they make up, and live happily ever after — and most of the time that’s just simply what we want. I love that this book isn’t centered on gender roles, or put people in a a certain box on what they should or shouldn’t do. The characters are distinct, and without fail, Talia Hibbert effortlessly weaved a good chemistry between them. I also commend how Talia Hibbert didn’t make Zafir’s mental illness the focal point of his character — he was written so beautifully you just want one for yourself. Dani Brown’s character was confident in her skin, knows what she wants and isn’t ashamed to get it. Yes to body and sex positivity! There was no pretense on how characters were written, they are raw, real and vulnerable as they can get. 

Take A Hint Dani Brown is filed under books I will reread over and over. The ultimate comfort read — sweet, swoony and steamy! It is a grand celebration of breaking free from the horrors of the past, of acknowledging its existence but no longer letting it define and consume you. Now it is my duty to shove this book to everyone’s face.

Act Your Age Eve Brown

My favorite grumpy and sunshine! This book screams cuteness overload. 

It is bittersweet finishing the series. I have read all three this 2021 and it has been the most amazing reading experience. Act Your Age, Eve Brown was the perfect conclusion and I am pretty positive I am going to revisit their story more often than I think I would. *but please don’t ask me which one was my favorite*

Act Your Age, Eve Brown follows the story of Eve, a woman who for her age is a bit of here and there, cannot fully decide on what she likes for herself, and Jacob, this control freak who wanted order and won’t take anything less than perfect. Eve is the absolute cutest whilst Jacob is just adorably grumpy. So when their lives collide, is just the perfect chaos. This grumpy/sunshine trope is what I live for. 

You see, what I love about Talia Hibbert’s characters are their maturity, they would have a fall out and then they would realize what they did wrong immediately thereafter. The conflict wasn’t blown out of proportions and characters do not act unnecessarily hurt just to give more to the conflict. Everything was just played right and realistic. I love characters who admit their flaws, accept them and change them. Characters who would not lose someone over pride or petty misunderstanding. Light, easy, delightful and just the best stress reliever. This is the kind of story I would always cling to. 

Act Your Age Eve Brown tackled topics on child neglect and autism, but much like the first two books in the series, these topics weren’t the focal point and was added to give more depth to the characters and their back stories, which I appreciated a lot. Talia Hibbert discussed these topics in a manner that isn’t overwhelming but rather blended them well to the story. The book made sure that characters were not just defined by a single thing but a plethora of characteristics that made them who they are. Reading Act Your Age, Eve Brown is like sleeping in a bed of marshmallows, soft, fluffy and oh so sweet. I highly recommend this series!

6. Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel

I am equal parts in awe and unsettled. This one hits close to home.

Sometimes I curse myself for not reading blurbs, I always wanted to be surprised. And surprised I was with Station Eleven. It wasn’t what I had expected at all. All I gathered before reading it was it’s about a traveling symphony, where characters perform from one town to the next. Little did I know I am in for a huge, anxiety-inducing surprise. I wasn’t prepared for a book about a freaking pandemic. It couldn’t have come at a better (or worse) time. Reading it in the time of real pandemic sends queasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was eerily resemblant to what’s happening in the world today. It was like a premonition I didn’t even want to know. 

You may think I hate the book, but that’s the thing, I don’t. I can’t say I love it though, but I am still giving it full five stars. It was so different and so relevant that I had to give it the praise it truly deserves. It’s not my favorite book, but it got me glued from the very first page up until the end. Stayed late for two consecutive nights because I just simply couldn’t put it down. It will suck you in this vortex of the looming possibility of the world’s collapse. Station Eleven gives you a taste of what the world would be like, that it’s not as far-fetched as we would want to believe.

I love how all the characters are connected in some cosmic way. It was a fairly short book but it felt complete and extensive. Characters are distinct and fully fleshed out. The story has this stunning layers to it told in such elegance and precision. I feel like I haven’t read an author quite like Emily St. John Mandel. I have to admit she instantly became a favorite author. Her story-telling is engaging and captivating. All my hoarding of her books, finally paying off. 

Station Eleven is the kind of book that you will still often think about in the years to come. It will hit you without preamble. And that’s what I love about books – its power to live on long after the last page had been turned. A true testament of its literary prowess. If a thought-provoking post apocalyptic novel is your thing, then Station Eleven is just the perfect book for you. 

So there you have it, despite the few numbers of books I’ve read this year I found these gems. These are the ones I can definitely recommend. I love that I read what I wanted to read and didn’t put unnecessary pressure on myself. I will definitely be bringing this to 2022. Happy new year guys! May you find new fave books!

Best Books I read in 2020 | Nerdy Talks

I know I have been missing in action in the blogosphere but here I am making up for it. 2020 was hellishly crazy and I know everyone can agree with me on that, but despite the chaotic year I was able to read some amazing books, yes out of the 36 I have read hahah I was able to pick out some best ones. I hope it is not too late to share them with you guys. So without further ado, here are the 10 best books I have read in 2020.

1. My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell

Reading this feels like watching a wreckage, logical thought would suggest you have to look away, but against all odds you just kept staring. 

My Dark Vanessa is the kind of read that will make your skin crawl. You will feel uncomfortable and bothered by what transpired between Vanessa and Strane. It has this inexplicable pull, its reader, dare I say, a willing victim. Its darkness is all consuming and powerful, like you’re under an immense grey cloud hovering above you for days. Reading this feels like watching a wreckage, logical thought would suggest you have to look away, but against all odds you just kept staring. It will leave you with unsettling feeling, a feeling you cannot simply shake off. A book that will stay with you for however long you like it.

Impactful and so beautifully written. A narrative that needs to be said no matter how ugly it was. I kept telling myself its fiction, but who am I kidding, these unspeakable things can happen or is happening to so many girls out there. That’s why it is so bothersome and depressing to read. I cannot in good conscience haphazardly recommend this book to whoever asks for literary fiction recommendation, I believe you have to set the trigger warnings first and always proceed with caution. It is a hard read, and I know not everyone would like it. A challenging read with sensitive topic but ultimately needed to be addressed. You have to have the proper mind set delving into this one. It will hit you differently, unpleasant at times, yet you will develop some profound understanding.

“I can’t lose the thing I’ve held onto for so long, you know?” My face twists up from the pain of pushing it out. “I just really need it to be a love story, you know? I really, really need it to be that.”

“I know,” she says.

“Because if it isn’t a love story, then what is it”? I look to her glassy eyes, her face of wide open empathy. “It’s my life,” I say. “This has been my whole life.” 

― Kate Elizabeth Russell, My Dark Vanessa

2. The Poppy War by R.F. Kuang

Complex and propulsive plotline with a surprising emotional depth. The Poppy War an adult fantasy that took me by surprise. It was gritty, dark, vicious and heart-stopping. RF Kuang explored politics, war, vengeance, prejudice, addiction and presented them without watering them down. It highlighted the bloody, gory and barbaric side of war without reservation. I truly commend Rin’s character development, from a lowly opium runner for her foster parents to possessing immense power. This book showed the ugly, vulnerable, resilient and dark side of Fang Runin – making her character not wholly likable but understandable.  The Poppy War is a celebration of fantasy that melds with historical events. It posits uncomfortable questions demanding clear cut answers. The Poppy War deserves all the hype.

“I have become something wonderful, she thought. I have become something terrible. Was she now a goddess or a monster? Perhaps neither. Perhaps both.” 

― R.F. Kuang, The Poppy War

3. The Stationery Shop by Marjan Kamali

A heartbreaking tale spanning 60 years between two lovers separated by unfortunate circumstances leading them to different paths. Set in Iran during the 1953 coup against then Prime Minister Mossadegh, The Stationery Shop is equal parts poignant and beautiful, uniformly engaging from beginning to end. It’s the kind of book I wouldn’t immediately gravitate towards, but I am so glad I gave it a try. I found a new favorite book! The atmosphere set by the author is fully immersive. Marjan Kamali weaves a masterpiece imaginative novel that would leave unforgettable ache into the hearts of its readers, leaving a sense of hollowness in its wake. A well-paced book, with well-balanced atmospheric plot never overshadowing the intertwining events. This book tackles Iran’s culture taking good with the bad. The Stationery Shop is melancholic portrait of vanished time, of regrets, of a love so powerful it never leaves. I felt inexplicable sadness after listening to that epilogue, it was heart-wrenching to have learned that so much grief could have been avoided, but ultimately it was their fate that had ruled. The first chapter juxtaposed to the epilogue only solidified the beauty of this book, and if readers pay enough attention they’ll learn that the characters weren’t bound for a happy ending and that thought crushed me more. I appreciate the backstory that accompanied Roya and Bahman’s love story giving depth to what had they become. I don’t want to divulge so much, I want everyone to appreciate the book without too much preconceived notions, so I will stop here. All I can say is this beautifully written book is worthy of your time, definitely recommend!

“She would not have understood, then, that time is not linear but circular. There is no past, present, future. Roya was the woman she was today and the seventeen-year-old girl in the Stationery Shop, always. She and Bahman were one, and she and Walter were united. Kyle was her soul and Marigold would never die.” 

― Marjan Kamali, The Stationery Shop

4. Black Girl Unlimited by Echo Brown

Its voice added to the crescendo of all the voices seeking for justice and change, and I heard it, louder than ever.  What an amazing read. This part autobiography narrated by the author herself chronicles her experiences as a Black girl from childhood to teenage years. Black Girl Unlimited tackles the heavy issues of racism, rape, drug addiction, sexual abuse, discrimination, sexism and depression with a twist of magical realism. This heartbreaking and chilling novel is a lot to take in, but the narrator found an approach that are equal parts thought provoking, illuminating and hopeful. It is going to break your heart a thousand times over but will heal it a thousand times more. Black Girl Unlimited is more than a small contribution in raising awareness and educating people about racism and oppression. I love how the author uses her trauma as a source of power — an inextinguishable fire. Black Girl Unlimited is not just a recount of awful, unspeakable and terrible things, but also a celebration of resilience and hope.

“I begin to wonder if white is the color of things to be worshipped in this world. If it’s the only color to be worshipped in this world.” 

― Echo Brown, Black Girl Unlimited

5. Clap When You Land by Elizabeth Acevedo

Clap When You Land adds a soul-searing voice to string of amazing diverse YA contemporary.  . Clap When You Land started with a tragedy that would unravel secrets and unite two girls in the most unconventional circumstance. Camino and Yahaira’s lives coalesce tenderly into a story of understanding and acceptance, a tribute to what it means to be a family despite the newness with a realization that there are things far bigger than their own selves. Elizabeth Acevedo’s literary style is precise and lyrical. Listening to this one on audio highlighted the beauty of the book even more. If you enjoy spoken word/slam poetry you will definitely enjoy the audio book of Clap When You Land. It was narrated by the author herself and Melania-Luisa Marte. This book is definitely something that hits home, having lost my father too, I couldn’t help but cry towards the end. With a prose so visceral and a narrative that is equally heartbreaking yet optimistic, Clap When You Land deserves all the hype it is getting. The book will make its reader appreciate the healing power of human connection. The heartfelt conclusion will tug at every heart strings. Elizabeth Acevedo definitely gained a fan in me. 

“Fight until you can’t breathe, & if you have to forfeit, you forfeit smiling, make them think you let them win.” 

― Elizabeth Acevedo, Clap When You Land

6. Miracle Creek by Angie Kim

Miracle Creek explores themes of motherhood, immigrant, disability and patriarchal masculinity. I appreciate that the author drew from her personal experience as an immigrant, a lawyer and parent of a real-life “submarine” patient. Miracle Creek weaves too many complexities that are hard to fully grasp and decipher from a certain perspective. It’s as if every little aspect can mean differently depends on who’s looking.  And though I gave this one 4 stars, I can still consider it as one of my reads last 2020.

“But that was the way life worked. Every human being was the result of a million different factors mixing together — one of a million sperm arriving at the egg at exactly a certain time; even a millisecond off, and another entirely different person would result. Good things and bad–every friendship and romance formed, every accident, every illness–resulted from the conspiracy of hundreds of little things, in and of themselves inconsequential.” 

― Angie Kim, Miracle Creek

7. Bringing Down the Duke by Evie Dunmore

Delicious and swoony!  Hell’s bells! This book was just sooooo goooood! Such a satisfying read from the first page up to the very last. It was hard to put down. A romance set during the Suffragettes Movement with a determined heroine and a duke with different political stance. A sure recipe for some good opposites-attract trope. I was wary to start a historical romance, let alone to read it during a readathon. This is my first historical romance, doesn’t come as a shocker since historical fiction has always been outside of my comfort zone. But boy oh boy oh boy, upon reading Bringing Down The Duke I am now a convert. I have been missing quite a whole lot from this genre, and now I need to get my hands on as much historical romance as I can!  Annabelle Archer is the heroine we needed, she is smart, has conviction, a feminist through and through. I love how she voices out her thoughts and stands for what she believes in. (I love love the convo between Lord Marsden). Sebastian Montgomery, the duke with certain ideologies and political stance that quite doesn’t match Annabelle’s. Their romance is just what I needed this time, a bit of a slow-burn, with few misunderstandings here and there, plus the palpable sexual tension that oozes out of them whenever they are in each other’ presence. It was the kind of romance I have been craving for!  Reading this is truly a breath of fresh air, I love the atmosphere it created, I love to be transported back in time, ultimately I love how the author strung those beautiful words without overdoing them and definitely without sounding pretentious – and for a non-historical fiction reader, that means whole lot! 

“The world of men is a brutal place. And yet women visit our offices, approach us in the streets, and send us petitions with tens of thousands more signatures every year to ask for more freedom. They feel their safety comes at the expense of their freedom. And, gentlemen, the trouble with freedom is it isn’t just an empty phrase that serves well in a speech. The desire to be free is an instinct deeply ingrained in every living thing. Trap any wild animal, and it will bite off its own paw to be free again. Capture a man, and breaking free will become his sole mission. Te only way to dissuade a creature from striving for its freedom is to break it … I, for my part, am not prepared to break half the population of Britain. I am, in fact, unprepared to see single woman harmed because of her desire for some liberty.” 

― Evie Dunmore, Bringing Down the Duke

8. The Flatshare by Beth O’Leary

I loved it! This book will hold a special place in my heart for it anchored me down and got me through the bad days. I have read it in a span of one month, only picking it up whenever I feel like I am going to lose myself to sadness, and boy it was such a beautiful thing! It was played right, the characters were amazing! Especially Leon, oh my he’s so precious and pure! I want a Leon for myself! 🤍 It was light, fun and such a cute read. And you know how much of a sucker I am for this kind of books. It will make you laugh, swoon and will just leave you with that happy fluffy feeling. I forgot how much happiness a book can give you. I hope this will be the restart of my reading streak! I miss reading so much I could actually cry after finishing The Flatshare! I can’t say enough good words about it. Just please please read it!

“Remind myself that there is no saving of people —people can only save themselves. The best you can do is help when they’re ready.” 

― Beth O’Leary, The Flatshare

9. Confessions by Kanae Minato

Twisted, dark and gripping psychological mind game.  This book is utter brilliance. I am certain I wouldn’t give it justice through this review, but I will try. Confessions is just pure perfection. Japanese literature can be so dark without even trying, Confessions is the very testament to that. I have to admit this is my first Japanese thriller and I am in awe. There’s such a stark contrast between how it was done and with how thrillers generally pan out in western books. The very first chapter clearly sets the mood of the whole book, that inexplicable feeling of being constantly on the edge, of constantly seeking what other surprises are there in between the lines. And though it is a bit repetitive, each chapter had something different to offer. I love the varied perspectives, giving the readers the full extent of the book, why the characters are the way they are. In Confessions, there’s subtlety yet alarming cunningness to it all. I am in awe how every action produces ripple of effects that are ultimately connected to each other. A clever story-telling. The characters are flawed, some may say deranged, which makes it more gripping and sinister. Deft characterization, solid plot, impossible to put down. Unsettling as it is intriguing, Confessions is a perfect depiction of human frailty and the depths and complexities of human mind. Definitely a book you wouldn’t come across often. This crime fiction thriller is a very welcome diversion from the awful reality we are in. 

“The world you live in is much bigger than that. If the place in which you find yourself is too painful, I say you should be free to seek another, less painful place of refuge. There is no shame in seeking a safe place. I want you to believe that somewhere in this wide world there is a place for you, a safe haven.” 

― Kanae Minato, Confessions

10. Beach Read by Emily Henry

Beach Read is so much more than what its gorgeous cover lets on. It is just everything I wanted in a book: 1) book about writers 2) playful and funny banters; 3) characters that are relatable and realistic (not the God-like, drop-dead gorgeous with ripped abs characters often described in romance books); 4) great family dynamic; 5) depth and character development and 6) lastly amazing plot line. This book isn’t just your ordinary summer read. While it has the quality of a feel good book, it also gives off maturity and depth, focusing on dealing with grief and coming to terms with it while also discovering one’s self in the process. Beach Read offers its readers an escape from their own heads while imparting a lesson or two. I love that in a book, the way that it is not just a book but a depiction, an understanding, a realization. It deals with different kinds of grief but contain universal pain. I love how a book speaks in volumes.

“And that was the moment I realized: when the world felt dark and scary, love could whisk you off to go dancing; laughter could take some of the pain away; beauty could punch holes in your fear. I decided then that my life would be full of all three.” 

― Emily Henry, Beach Read

So there you have it! I really hope that 2021 will let me discover new authors and new books to love and rave about. 2020 really took a toll on my reading and I am planning to regain that gusto to just read and read and read. I just have to make a conscious effort to do it this time, wish me luck!

My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell | Book Review

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Exploring the psychological dynamics of the relationship between a precocious yet naïve teenage girl and her magnetic and manipulative teacher, a brilliant, all-consuming read that marks the explosive debut of an extraordinary new writer.

2000. Bright, ambitious, and yearning for adulthood, fifteen-year-old Vanessa Wye becomes entangled in an affair with Jacob Strane, her magnetic and guileful forty-two-year-old English teacher.

2017. Amid the rising wave of allegations against powerful men, a reckoning is coming due. Strane has been accused of sexual abuse by a former student, who reaches out to Vanessa, and now Vanessa suddenly finds herself facing an impossible choice: remain silent, firm in the belief that her teenage self willingly engaged in this relationship, or redefine herself and the events of her past. But how can Vanessa reject her first love, the man who fundamentally transformed her and has been a persistent presence in her life? Is it possible that the man she loved as a teenager—and who professed to worship only her—may be far different from what she has always believed?

Alternating between Vanessa’s present and her past, My Dark Vanessa juxtaposes memory and trauma with the breathless excitement of a teenage girl discovering the power her own body can wield. Thought-provoking and impossible to put down, this is a masterful portrayal of troubled adolescence and its repercussions that raises vital questions about agency, consent, complicity, and victimhood. Written with the haunting intimacy of The Girls and the creeping intensity of RoomMy Dark Vanessa is an era-defining novel that brilliantly captures and reflects the shifting cultural mores transforming our relationships and society itself.

Date Published: March 10, 2020

Date Read: April 8, 2020

Publisher: William Morrow Books

No. of Pages: 384

Setting: Maine

Genre: Fiction, Contemporary, Adult

Trigger Warnings: Pedophilia, Rape, Sexual Assault

Get you Copy Here:  Amazon | Book Depository 

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Reading this feels like watching a wreckage, logical thought would suggest you have to look away, but against all odds you just kept staring.

TRIGGER WARNING: Rape, pedophilia, sexual assault.

My Dark Vanessa is the kind of read that will make your skin crawl. You will feel uncomfortable and bothered by what transpired between Vanessa and Strane. It has this inexplicable pull, its reader dare I say, a willing victim. Its darkness is all consuming and powerful, like you’re under an immense grey cloud hovering above you for days. Reading this feels like watching a wreckage, logical thought would suggest you have to look away, but against all odds you just kept staring. It will leave you with unsettling feeling, a feeling you cannot simply shake off. A book that will stay with you for however long you like it. Impactful and so beautifully written. A narrative that needs to be said no matter how ugly it was. I kept telling myself its fiction, but who am I kidding, these unspeakable things can happen or is happening to so many girls out there. That’s why it is so bothersome and depressing to read.

My Dark Vanessa is a book that will challenge you. Not an easy read. Not a book I would typically reach out, nor a book I would read during this pandemic. I first listened to on audio from Scribd, and I tell you it has the most talented narrator.Listening to it sends a different kind of chill – a whole new level of horror. The reading experience magnified and heightened 10x more. It will suck you in like a vortex. A tip to maximize your reading experience, listen to audio while reading the book. That’s a sure way to ingrain the book inside your pretty head. It was a harrowing read from beginning to end. My Dark Vanessa brought chills as I listen through Vanessa’s ordeal with what had transpired when she was 15, and how it affected her and her disposition throughout her adult life. Kate Elizabeth Russell’s writing style was precise, lucid and not too overwrought with unnecessary description of a place or a person, which somehow works really well in the book. It was able to send its chilling message across without sounding pretentious. My Dark Vanessa dumped love, consent, complicity, rape and manipulation in murky water making it hard to distinguish one from the other. Thought provoking at best.

The complicated characters, especially the narrator – Vanessa, gave so much depth to the book, making it more repulsive and graphic but also will give you a feeling you just couldn’t quite place, like sympathy and pity. Vanessa, was an enigma, (just how Henry Plough said it), her character so complex. You couldn’t quite guess what would be her reaction to certain things. There is darkness within her that is very hard to fathom, a kind of darkness that follows her, looms over everything she touches. Jacob Strane’s character is predatory and manipulative, but the book was able to paint him in a certain light that shows he is so much more than what he is. From this you will understand why Vanessa reacted the way she did or how Vanessa regarded Strane, on why she always puts him in a pedestal. It was frustrating to read, and yet the book was not amiss to lay down the foundation of Vanessa’s character, which was riddled with misplaced maturity and boldness.

I cannot in good conscience haphazardly recommend this book to whoever asks for literary fiction recommendation, I believe you have to set the trigger warnings first and always proceed with caution. It is a hard read, and I know not everyone would like it. A challenging read with sensitive topic but ultimately needed to be addressed. You have to have the proper mind set delving into this one. It will hit you differently, unpleasant at times, yet you will develop some profound understanding.

Kate Elizabeth Russell definitely made her mark with this debut. Now I have high expectations from her. Best believe I will be looking forward to more of her writing.

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“Girls in those stories are always victims, and I am not. And it doesn’t have anything to do with what Strane did or didn’t do to me when I was younger. I’m not a victim because I never wanted to be, and If I didn’t want to be, then I’m not. That’s how it works. The difference between rape and sex is state of mind. You can’t rape the willing, right?”
― Kate Elizabeth Russell, My Dark Vanessa

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❝”What could have we done? We were just girls.” I know what she means — not that we were helpless by choice, but that the world forced us to be. Who would have believed us, who would have cared? ❞ — Kate Elizabeth Russell; My Dark Vanessa . ••• . 🖤My Dark Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell BOOK REVIEW🖤 5⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ . Reading this feel like watching a wreckage, logical thought would suggest you have to look away, but against all odds you just kept staring. My Dark Vanessa is the kind of read that will make your skin crawl. You will feel uncomfortable and bothered by what transpires between Vanessa and Strane. It has this inexplicable pull, its reader dare I say, a willing victim. Its darkness is all consuming and powerful, like you’re under an immense grey cloud hovering above you for days. It’s like watching a wreckage, logical thought would suggest you have to look away, but against all odds you just kept staring – that’s how I could describe this book. It will leave you with unsettling feeling, a feeling you cannot simply shake off. A book that will stay with you for however long you like it. Impactful and so beautifully written. A narrative that needs to be said no matter how ugly it was. I kept telling myself its fiction, but who am I kidding, these unspeakable things can happen or is happening to so many girls out there. That’s why it is so bothersome and depressing to read. The complicated characters, especially the narrator – Vanessa gave so much depth to the book, making it more repulsive and chilling but also a feeling you couldn’t quite place, like sympathy. I wish I could articulate my thoughts more, but I don’t want certain thoughts on the book to slip through my head. I will be making a full review on this, I just have to further gather my thoughts and make it coherent. But yes, if you want a challenging book, read this. TW: rape, pedophilia, sexual assault . ••• #MyDarkVanessa #KateElizabethRussell #literaryfiction #strane #bookconnectsus #bookstagram #booklover #bibliophile #nerdytalks #bookish #books #reader #tbr #tbrpile #read #readingissexy #beautiful #stackofbooks #bookworld #tales #pages #pageone

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#StanAsianAuthors and 2020 #AsianReadathon

 

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May is Asian Heritage Month and what best way to celebrate it than to read all the Asian books. Looking at the books I have read so far this year, it pains me to admit that I haven’t been reading quite diversely. My need to read anything I like often wins more than the necessity to read more diverse books. There’s nothing wrong with reading the books you like, let me straighten that out. After all, reading should be something comforting and familiar. It is just my personal goal to read more diverse books, and I felt like I haven’t been acing that one lately. Now what pushed me to do this? Aside from the need to read more diversely, I felt the need to celebrate Asian Authors and their huge contribution to the literary world. This may or may not be affected by the recent book twitter issue involving a white author and a Filipina author. Would not delve on that issue since that isn’t my point here. My point is, Asian Authors are not given much love and recognition as opposed to white authors, and that is a bitter pill to swallow. And as an Asian myself, I think it is my duty to support and celebrate Asian authors (because frankly, Asians are cool, nope, not up for debate) the best way I know how.

Adding the fact that we are in an unprecedented time and we are coping the best way we can, I would like to take this opportunity to take you with me in combating this boredom and the pressing anxiety brought by this isolation. It is not easy to navigate life in this “new” normal, sometimes I want to indulge myself into some bouts of crying. Haha. But seriously, if you feel unmotivated, uninspired, anxious or afraid, your feelings are perfectly valid and you are entitled to feel all of it. If you don’t feel like doing anything, or you don’t want to read a book, or participate in anything productive, that is perfectly fine too. We cope differently, do whatever you need to help you get through each day!

I am happy to learn that my little #StanAsianAuthor plan for May coincides with Read With Cindy ‘s 2020 Asian Readathon which is basically gearing towards the same goal – read all the Asian books!!! So yayy that is me hitting two birds with one stone! Here’s the master list of Asian Books (click here) curated by her. The master list is extensive and very helpful! I love love love it! If you wish to join Read With Cindy and/or me, you can use #StanAsianAuthors and #AsianReadathon on your socials!

 

I know everyone doesn’t have access to a lot of books, but I hope you can take this time to read those books sitting on your shelves for a little while now. I could also suggest Scribd for a wide variety of ebooks and audiobooks ( I live for their audio books selection!). The last time I checked, Scribd is still offering free month subscription to help us cope during this uncertain time. A sentence review on Scribd: I ‘ve been abusing it like crazy and loving every minute of it!

I also have curated the books I am planning to read. This is quite ambitious for me, since I am not a fast reader and I get easily distracted. Let’s just say I would be happy to read at least 4 of this. I am also planning to listen to some audiobooks and have plans as well to read on my kindle (since I tend to read faster on kindle). Below are the synopsis of the books I am planning to read:

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1. Strange Weather in Tokyo by Hiromi Kawakami

20868283._SY475_Tsukiko is drinking alone in her local sake bar when by chance she meets one of her old high school teachers and, unable to remember his name, she falls back into her old habit of calling him ‘Sensei’. After this first encounter, Tsukiko and Sensei continue to meet. Together, they share edamame beans, bottles of cold beer, and a trip to the mountains to eat wild mushrooms. As their friendship deepens, Tsukiko comes to realise that the solace she has found with Sensei might be something more.

 

 

 

2. Singapore Love Stories by Verena Tay

32147674._SY475_What does it mean to love and be loved in Singapore?

Singapore Love Stories is a vibrant collection of seventeen stories that delves into the diverse love lives of Singapore’s eclectic mix of inhabitants. From the HDB heartlander to the Sentosa millionaire, the privileged expatriate to the migrant worker, the accidental tourist to the reluctant citizen, the characters in this anthology reveal an array of perspectives of love found in the island city-state.

Leading Singaporean and Singapore-based writers explore the best and worst of the human condition called love, including grief, duplicity and revenge, self-love, filial love, homesickness and tragic past relationships. Collectively, the stories in this anthology reveal the many ways in which love can be both a salve and a wound in life.

 

3. In The Country by Mia Alvar

30738562._SY475_These nine globe-trotting, unforgettable stories from Mia Alvar, a remarkable new literary talent, vividly give voice to the women and men of the Filipino diaspora. Here are exiles, emigrants, and wanderers uprooting their families from the Philippines to begin new lives in the Middle East, the United States, and elsewhere—and, sometimes, turning back again.

A pharmacist living in New York smuggles drugs to his ailing father in Manila, only to discover alarming truths about his family and his past. In Bahrain, a Filipina teacher drawn to a special pupil finds, to her surprise, that she is questioning her own marriage. A college student leans on her brother, a laborer in Saudi Arabia, to support her writing ambitions, without realizing that his is the life truly made for fiction. And in the title story, a journalist and a nurse face an unspeakable trauma amidst the political turmoil of the Philippines in the 1970s and ’80s.

In the Country speaks to the heart of everyone who has ever searched for a place to call home. From teachers to housemaids, from mothers to sons, Alvar’s powerful debut collection explores the universal experiences of loss, displacement, and the longing to connect across borders both real and imagined. Deeply compassionate and richly felt, In the Country marks the emergence of a formidable new writer.

 

4. Lalani of The Distant Sea by Erin Entrada Kelly

41180656._SY475_There are stories of extraordinary children who are chosen from birth to complete great quests and conquer evil villains.

This is no such story.

Sometimes, you are an ordinary child.

Sometimes, you have to choose yourself.

This is the story of Lalani Sarita, a twelve-year-old girl who lives on the island of Sanlagita in the shadow of a vengeful mountain. When she makes a fateful wish that endangers her already-vulnerable village, she sets out across the distant sea in search of life’s good fortunes. Grown men have died making the same journey. What hope does an ordinary girl have?

Inspired by Filipino folklore, Lalani of the Distant Sea introduces readers to a landscape of magical creatures, such as Bai-Vinca, the enormous birdwoman; Ditasa Ulod, part woman, part eel; the mindoren, a race of creatures modeled after the water buffalo; and the whenbo — trees that eat the souls of the dead.

 

5. Confessions Kanae Minato

19161835HER PUPILS KILLED HER DAUGHTER.
NOW, SHE WILL HAVE HER REVENGE.

After calling off her engagement in wake of a tragic revelation, Yuko Moriguchi had nothing to live for except her only child, four-year-old Manami. Now, following an accident on the grounds of the middle school where she teaches, Yuko has given up and tendered her resignation.

But first she has one last lecture to deliver. She tells a story that upends everything her students ever thought they knew about two of their peers, and sets in motion a maniacal plot for revenge.

Narrated in alternating voices, with twists you’ll never see coming, Confessions explores the limits of punishment, despair, and tragic love, culminating in a harrowing confrontation between teacher and student that will place the occupants of an entire school in danger. You’ll never look at a classroom the same way again.

 

6. The Poppy War by RF Kuang

35068705When Rin aced the Keju—the Empire-wide test to find the most talented youth to learn at the Academies—it was a shock to everyone: to the test officials, who couldn’t believe a war orphan from Rooster Province could pass without cheating; to Rin’s guardians, who believed they’d finally be able to marry her off and further their criminal enterprise; and to Rin herself, who realized she was finally free of the servitude and despair that had made up her daily existence. That she got into Sinegard—the most elite military school in Nikan—was even more surprising.

But surprises aren’t always good.

Because being a dark-skinned peasant girl from the south is not an easy thing at Sinegard. Targeted from the outset by rival classmates for her color, poverty, and gender, Rin discovers she possesses a lethal, unearthly power—an aptitude for the nearly-mythical art of shamanism. Exploring the depths of her gift with the help of a seemingly insane teacher and psychoactive substances, Rin learns that gods long thought dead are very much alive—and that mastering control over those powers could mean more than just surviving school.

For while the Nikara Empire is at peace, the Federation of Mugen still lurks across a narrow sea. The militarily advanced Federation occupied Nikan for decades after the First Poppy War, and only barely lost the continent in the Second. And while most of the people are complacent to go about their lives, a few are aware that a Third Poppy War is just a spark away . . .

Rin’s shamanic powers may be the only way to save her people. But as she finds out more about the god that has chosen her, the vengeful Phoenix, she fears that winning the war may cost her humanity . . . and that it may already be too late.

 

7. Miracle Creek by Angie Kim

40121959How far will you go to protect your family? Will you keep their secrets? Ignore their lies?

In a small town in Virginia, a group of people know each other because they’re part of a special treatment center, a hyperbaric chamber that may cure a range of conditions from infertility to autism. But then the chamber explodes, two people die, and it’s clear the explosion wasn’t an accident.

A showdown unfolds as the story moves across characters who are all maybe keeping secrets, hiding betrayals. Was it the careless mother of a patient? Was it the owners, hoping to cash in on a big insurance payment and send their daughter to college? Could it have been a protester, trying to prove the treatment isn’t safe?

 

8. The Magical Language of Others by EJ Koh

46195204The Magical Language of Others is a powerful and aching love story in letters, from mother to daughter. After living in America for over a decade, Eun Ji Koh’s parents return to South Korea for work, leaving fifteen-year-old Eun Ji and her brother behind in California. Overnight, Eun Ji finds herself abandoned and adrift in a world made strange by her mother’s absence. Her mother writes letters, in Korean, over the years seeking forgiveness and love—letters Eun Ji cannot fully understand until she finds them years later hidden in a box.

As Eun Ji translates the letters, she looks to history—her grandmother Jun’s years as a lovesick wife in Daejeon, the horrors her grandmother Kumiko witnessed during the Jeju Island Massacre—and to poetry, as well as her own lived experience to answer questions inside all of us. Where do the stories of our mothers and grandmothers end and ours begin? How do we find words—in Korean, Japanese, English, or any language—to articulate the profound ways that distance can shape love? Eun Ji Koh fearlessly grapples with forgiveness, reconciliation, legacy, and intergenerational trauma, arriving at insights that are essential reading for anyone who has ever had to balance love, longing, heartbreak, and joy.

The Magical Language of Others weaves a profound tale of hard-won selfhood and our deep bonds to family, place, and language, introducing—in Eun Ji Koh—a singular, incandescent voice.

9. This Time Will be Different by Misa Sugiura

36220348._SX318_Katsuyamas never quit—but seventeen-year-old CJ doesn’t even know where to start. She’s never lived up to her mom’s type A ambition, and she’s perfectly happy just helping her aunt, Hannah, at their family’s flower shop.

She doesn’t buy into Hannah’s romantic ideas about flowers and their hidden meanings, but when it comes to arranging the perfect bouquet, CJ discovers a knack she never knew she had. A skill she might even be proud of.

Then her mom decides to sell the shop—to the family who swindled CJ’s grandparents when thousands of Japanese Americans were sent to internment camps during WWII. Soon a rift threatens to splinter CJ’s family, friends, and their entire Northern California community; and for the first time, CJ has found something she wants to fight for.

 

That’s my ambitious TBR, who knows I could add more. Crossing my fingers I could read most of them if not all! I quite started reading Asian authors as I am currently reading/listening on audio book Days of Distraction by Alexandra Chang.

Do share your tbrs should you decide to join this amazing asian readathons! Let’s spread all the love and celebrate Asian authors and their amazing works! I am thinking of doing this as a yearly thing, we’ll see!

Stay safe, stay home!

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Beach Read by Emily Henry | ARC Review

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A romance writer who no longer believes in love and a literary writer stuck in a rut engage in a summer-long challenge that may just upend everything they believe about happily ever afters.

Augustus Everett is an acclaimed author of literary fiction. January Andrews writes bestselling romance. When she pens a happily ever after, he kills off his entire cast.

They’re polar opposites.

In fact, the only thing they have in common is that for the next three months, they’re living in neighboring beach houses, broke, and bogged down with writer’s block.

Until, one hazy evening, one thing leads to another and they strike a deal designed to force them out of their creative ruts: Augustus will spend the summer writing something happy, and January will pen the next Great American Novel. She’ll take him on field trips worthy of any rom-com montage, and he’ll take her to interview surviving members of a backwoods death cult (obviously). Everyone will finish a book and no one will fall in love. Really.

Date of Publication: May 19, 2020

Date Read: April 05, 2020

Publisher: Berkley Publishing

No. of Pages: 384

Genre: Contemporary Romance

Setting: North Bears Shore, Michigan

Get Your Copy Here: Amazon | Book Depository| Book Of The Month

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A new favorite romance for 2020!

Long time no review! I haven’t been giving full reviews since the year started, but this book deserves a full one! Beach Read is now included in my favorite books list. Best believe this will be one of the books that will come up on one of our conversations. Beach Read is so much more than what its gorgeous cover lets on. It is just everything I wanted in a book: 1) book about writers ; ) playful and funny banters; 3) characters that are relatable and realistic  (not the God-like, drop-dead gorgeous with ripped abs characters often described in romance books); 4) great family dynamic; 5) depth and character development and 6) lastly amazing plot line.

This book isn’t just your ordinary summer read. While it has the quality of a feel good book (something we desperately need during this uncertain time) it also gives off maturity and depth, focusing on dealing with grief and coming to terms with it while also discovering one’s self in the process. Beach Read offers its readers an escape from their own heads while imparting a lesson or two. I love that in a book, the way that it is not just a book but a depiction, an understanding, a realization. It deals with different kinds of grief but contain universal pain. I love how a book speaks in volumes.

January Andrews and Augustus Everett (gossssh I love their names!!!) are characters I have been longing to read for quite sometime. Who would pass up on a story about a romance writer and a literary fiction author? The premise alone holds so much promise and it definitely held up its part of the bargain, definitely exceeded my expectations.. January and Augustus have solid characteristics with amazing character development. Their characters represent two kinds of different people, one with a happier outlook and the other with seriousness, bleakness and some sense of intensity – looking at the world not with pessimism but with realistic eyes. I loved how their characters compliment each other and how their deal came about, how they each learn the value of the other’s work.

I loved how this book highlighted the notions on women’s fiction and how it should be valued just as much as any kind of literature. Oh gosh I love their rom-com trips, my fave was the drive-in, I am such a sucker for that! The author was able to highlight so much about the process of writing (makes me want to write my own book haha). Augustus and January’s banters and palpable sexual tension gave this book so much color. I laughed on more than one occasion. I love how easy their conversations are and how it doesn’t feel forced. Beach Read is the kind of book that really was able to sell the relationship of the characters, they are easily lovable and you just can’t help but root for them. The slow burn romance was played out well. While there are times that I would like Augustus and January’s relationship to move on to the next level and a few times got frustrated by their “almosts”, like I just want them to make out already  and be a happy happy couple haha. But when everything unfolded and ran its course, it was just perfect and definitely worth the wait. The romance was just made right, and that’s what I love most about it.

I can confidently say that Beach Read will be loved by many. It’s fun, sweet, tug at your heartstrings, with relatable characters and have an awesome setting. Honestly, what’s not to love?

 

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Falling’s the part that takes your breath away. It’s the part when you can’t believe the person standing in front of you both exists and happened to wander into your path. It’s supposed to make you feel lucky to be alive, exactly when and where you are.

— Emily Henry; Beach Read

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Nerdy Talks Top 10 Books of 2019

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Another great year has ended with it the best books that graced the earth. 2019 wasn’t really the best reading year for me, I have been juggling my profession and personal stuff like crazy and let just say reading and blogging took the back seat this year. Despite this I was still able to read noteworthy books, I may not have made it quantity wise but the quality of the books I enjoyed the past year, I can definitely live with.

1. Not That Bad by Roxanne Gay

Not That Bad by Roxane Gay is a deep and raw collection of essays. It tackles rape culture told in varying perspective. This is such a powerful read, it should be a required reading. Have everyone in your life read this, especially the men in your life. It was a heavy read but so important! I have learned so much in reading this – and before this I thought I knew enough, turns out I am wrong. I know so little. Reading this book was a very bitter pill to swallow but something that should be fully addressed, and should be talked about more openly.

2. Strange The Dreamer by Laini Taylor

I have always been a fan of Laini Taylor’s writing. There was not single book she has written (that I’ve read) that I didn’t like. She has this whimsical way of story-telling. One of the best fantasy writers that I’ve ever read. Strange The Dreamer is magical in all sense of the word. It is not the usual fantasy we come across each day. It has so much more to offer. What I like best about Laini Taylor’s works is the quality of the writing style. Lyrical and well-executed – giving you the full experience. The kind of story that will stay with you, the kind of story you’ll definitely go back to.

3. Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine by Gail Honeyman

Eleanor Oliphant is Completely Fine  is the kind of book you never thought you ever needed. Eleanor was such a great narrator, funny without even trying, heck without even knowing it. This book is hilarious and heartbreaking at the same time. It was so much more than the high praises it was constantly getting. Eleanor Oliphant is not the likable kind. I have always found it funny whenever people rates a book low because the main character was not likable. I always expect the characters to be as real as any human being one comes across with, and to be honest, not everyone is likable, I myself is not everyone’s favorite and that’s okay. Why should it be any different with characters in a book? This is the kind of book that makes sense as it goes, from loathing Eleanor to loving her and understanding her better. I can say this is my ultimate fave book of 2019.

4. The Bride Test by Helen Hoang

Ackkkk another book that made me so giddy. I have loved The Kiss Quotient and I was ecstatic about The Bride Test and it definitely did not disappoint at all. Helen Hoang has now a special place in my heart. Another auto-buy author. This book gives the right amount of sexy and sweet, with dash of some family dynamic. I loved loved loved the Asian representation. Asians are represented more and more into books and movies and I appreciate this a whole lot! Another plus point for The Bride Test is it is an own voices book. The Autism Spectrum was explained in a way that many people could understand it better and in simpler terms. You can really tell that the author knows her craft and is not afraid to use it.

I am glad this book did not suffer the proverbial second book syndrome. It is beautiful and engaging in its own right. Can’t wait for book three!

 

5. Lock Every Door by Riley Sager

Lock Every Door is the very first book I have read by Riley Sager. His name has been rounding the internet for quite some time already but I never got the chance to read his works until Lock Every Door and boy was I missing out. I breezed through this book. It grips you like a vise. This book is a solid page turner. The kind that keeps you at the edge of your seat. It will give you the creeps and the chills at first, but as you plunge deeper you’ll learn that it isn’t just a simple scare, something more profound lies underneath. Ahhh I wish I could say more, but I don’t want to spoil it to anyone. Here’s one thing I just learned, this will be made into a TV series, can’t wait how it will turn out! That would be exciting!

6. The Unhoneymooners by Christina Lauren

Reading this book felt like a wonderful vacation! You have to give it to the duo to come up with fresh and unique rom coms every time. Unhoneymooners is not an exception – it is funny, sexy and cute! The best summer read if you ask me.The Unhoneymooners is quite addictive, just impossible to put down. And did I mention I love the humor in this one? It was so beautifully crafted, reading it felt like a true vacation. What I also love about this book is the conflict towards the end, how you thought everything is as smooth-sailing as one implies it to be, then bam! Loved that it wasn’t just some shallow conflict just for shock value, it was what the book needed to give more texture and to make it everything but a cliche. By the end my cheeks hurt from smiling a too much. Gahhhh I just love Olive and Ethan okay?? If you are looking for a fun and light read make it your life’s mission to read this one and all other books by these amazing authors!

7. On Earth We Are Briefly Gorgeous by Ocean Vuong

On Earth We Are Briefly Gorgeous has got to be one of the most lyrical book I have ever read. This book floored me. It was so beautifully written. The kind of book that would stay with you for days, even years! It was short but it was dense. I have tabbed so many passages, I think this is my most tabbed book. This is not just briefly gorgeous, this book is eternal. A masterpiece! I am so in love with Ocean Vuong’s writing style – it was powerful yet melancholic, lyrical yet precise.

8. All The Ugly and Wonderful Things by Bryn Greenwood

All The Ugly and Wonderful Things is a highly controversial book. I know that this book ain’t for everyone. It is the kind of book that will challenge you as a reader. It will make you uncomfortable but at the same time root for the characters. You’ll be conflicted all the way but will end up appreciating the story. It was controversial as it was a masterpiece. It was an unconventional love story spanning years. The most unlikely couple yet a big part of me roots for them so bad. It’s like I wanted to be in the book and explain to people what’s between Wavy and Kellen.

Wavy, Kellen, Donal and all other characters are so distinct and impactful, the kind you’ll be thinking about long after you’ve read it. Bryn Greenwood is such an exquisite story teller. I’m silently cursing myself for not reading this one sooner. This book definitely made it to my top books of 2019!

9. The Nickel Boys by Colson Whitehead

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❝He had to trust a stranger to do the right thing. It was impossible, like loving the one who wanted to destroy you, but that was the message of the movement: to trust the ultimate decency that lived in every human heart. ❞ ― Colson Whitehead, The Nickel Boys ••• 5⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ Finishing this book sent me into an emotional turmoil. As if there’s this inexplicable weight on me that I just couldn’t simply shake off. I was more than sad reading this book, it was harrowing and unimaginable. Such an impactful read. It is the kind of book that you wouldn’t forget. It would creep up in your head without preamble, and you’ll feel hollowed out and just extremely heart broken. The same feeling I felt when I read A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara. It was unsettling, I can’t stop thinking about it. It was a short book but wow, it gave out more than you could hope for. And that ending, I was too stunned, I had to process everything. Such a well written book that tackles racism, discrimination and so much more. A required read if I say so my self. Now give me a happy book or else I will sulk all this weekend. 😔 ••• PH friends you could get your copy at @_fullybooked. You can call to make a reservation or just go there and grab the book. Prepare your emotions though, this book is a heavy read but something so profound and impactful! #TheNickelBoys #nerdytalksreview #fullybooked #ColsonWhitehead #literaryfiction

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The Nickel Boys sent me into an emotional turmoil. As if there’s this inexplicable weight on me that I just couldn’t simply shake off. I was more than sad reading this book, it was harrowing and unimaginable. Such an impactful read. Unforgetful. It would creep up in your head without preamble, and you’ll feel hollowed out and just extremely heart broken. The same feeling I felt when I read A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara. It was unsettling, I can’t stop thinking about it. It was a short book but wow, it gave out more than you could hope for. And that ending, I was too stunned, I had to process everything. Such a well written book that tackles racism, discrimination and so much more. A required read if I say so my self.

10. Ice Planet Barbarians series by Ruby Dixon

Not a book but a series. It was 2019 when I finally been swayed to read the Ice Planet Barbarian series. And my goodness, it is a series that keeps on giving. It just keeps getting better and better each book. I love how as the book progresses the plot thickens, the setting expands, the characters evolve. Everything else gets better and more engaging. When you look past those covers and focus on the story of each book you’ll understand how it isn’t just smut, it is so much more. It had depth and a real story that is truly entertaining. If you’re just a tad bit curious, I say go ahead and read the first book, it wouldn’t hurt to do that. You can thank me later!

 

Honorable Mention:

Dear Ijeawele, or a Feminist Manifesto in Fifteen Suggestions by Chimamanda Ngozie Adichie

A powerful book! It was liberating and thought-provoking. Presented in a simple letter form that gave so much impact and hits home more than it intends to. There are differences in customs and cultures presented here, at least a little different from Asian type of upbringing, but what was written here is universal. The fifteen suggestions transcend cultures, customs, idealogies and race. It encompasses everything and that’s how feminist books should be written. It is not selective in its pursuit for equality nor it gives misconceptions, if for anything it debunks certain “feminist concepts” — feminist lites, which to be honest I may or may not have been one. This book lets you unlearn what you’ve been fed to believe and what you thought was right and acceptable all along. It was a blessing reading this one. I have learned so much. It is insightful and relevant, I couldn’t help but pass it on to someone else and let them be enlightened and be educated more. I’m gonna talk about this book as passionately as it deserves!

 

So there you have it, my top books of 2019. I hope 2020 will bring more quality books. Happy New Year everyone may you all find your favorite book this year!

 

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Falling Through Love by Akif Kichloo | Book Review

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Falling Through Love is a heart-pounding, stomach-dropping, beautiful plunge into experiences of love, longing, and loss.

Falling Through Love submerges readers into Kichloo’s deeply personal yet widely resonant experiences, exploring relationships in their most exposed and honest states. Written in a variety of poetic forms—free verse, rhyme, prose, and visual poetry—Falling Through Love takes the reader on a poignant journey with the writer, about charting one’s own path in life, investigating failure, family dynamics, and love. Looking at life backward and forward simultaneously, this collection brings forth new perspectives on what it means to be alive, to have made mistakes, to have fought for an identity, to have loved and lost and then loved and lost again.

Date Published: November 5, 2019

Date Read: November 7, 2019

Genre: Poetry

Number of Pages: 144 pages

Get your copy here: Amazon | Book Depository| Barnes and Noble

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Fearless, honest, evocative and personal.

Akif Kichloo has proven himself to be a new rising poet to definitely watch out for. I have the pleasure of reading his other work Poems That Lose which I thoroughly enjoyed as well, but Falling Through Love has got to be my favorite book by him. I have witnessed how much his poetry evolved from his very first book up to the latest one. He was more precise, yet never losing his signature charm.

There are few poems here that honestly made me tear up, especially the poem The Absence of Everything. I don’t know why, but it gave me goosebumps. The poem is about a stillborn child and how it somewhat affected the relationship of the parents. It spoke to me as if I have undergone the same ordeal, when in fact I didn’t. And that was what is commendable with this collection of poetry, it has the power to make you feel emotions beyond your own understanding.

Falling Through Love is such a powerful collection revolving around family, parent and child relationship, loss, longing, brokenness, love and the depths of it and so much more. It was coherent yet gave different textures, different flavours. It tackled topics with full of heart, you can notice how personal each of the poems were, yet one couldn’t help but resonate to it as if each poem is also about its reader no matter how different their situation might be. It was personal yet inclusive. It touches you like every good poetry should. It wasn’t a detached piece of writing, it was inviting, with shared joy and even shared grief. A collection like this is hard to come by these days.

Akif Kichloo is now added to my favorite poets list. His work is truly something to watch out for. Lyrical yet concise. Honest and evocative. Fearless and passionate. A book worthy of your precious time.

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there is this tender place
between nothing & everything

now that’s where I see myself;

someone’s something
in the everything of their world.

— Falling Through Love, Akif Kichloo

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Shadow and Bone by Leigh Bardugo | Book Review

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Surrounded by enemies, the once-great nation of Ravka has been torn in two by the Shadow Fold, a swath of near impenetrable darkness crawling with monsters who feast on human flesh. Now its fate may rest on the shoulders of one lonely refugee.

Alina Starkov has never been good at anything. But when her regiment is attacked on the Fold and her best friend is brutally injured, Alina reveals a dormant power that saves his life—a power that could be the key to setting her war-ravaged country free. Wrenched from everything she knows, Alina is whisked away to the royal court to be trained as a member of the Grisha, the magical elite led by the mysterious Darkling.

Yet nothing in this lavish world is what it seems. With darkness looming and an entire kingdom depending on her untamed power, Alina will have to confront the secrets of the Grisha . . . and the secrets of her heart.

Date Published: June 5, 2012

Publisher: Henry Holt and Company

Date Read: October 2019

No. of Pages: 358 pages

Genre: Fantasy

Get Your Copy Here: Amazon | Barnes & Noble | Book Depository

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Verdict: Meh

Shadow and Bone, oh my oh my, where do I even begin? First off, this book is really hard to get into. I keep on spacing out, I keep putting it down. 100 pages down and it hadn’t gripped my attention. I just didn’t have it in me to be excited about it. I just wanted to get it over and done with so I can proceed to other books. You know that feeling when you couldn’t wait to rush home, lock yourself in your room and read the night away? Well, I didn’t feel it towards this book. Unconsciously maybe I have high expectations since I have been hearing a lot of buzz surrounding this series and since the cast for the show has been revealed. A part of me felt like I needed to be in the loop with what’s happening in the bookish world. I am easily swayed alright?

Shadow and Bone was a bit anticlimactic. There are so many missed opportunities to make it more solid and impactful. It really had the potential to be more epic, but the narration and world building just isn’t a cut above the rest. I feel like if you’ve been a heavy fantasy reader you would find this book mediocre, I am not a heavy fantasy reader by a long stretch, so that means a lot. Shadow and Bone might be a good start for readers who are branching out to the fantasy genre.

Let’s talk about the characters. I found Alina’s character to be too weak, indecisive, push-over and what have you. It felt like whatever she did outstanding was just an afterthought. It lacked character development, something I crave for in fantasy books. The Darkling on the other hand, is something I want to read more of. I wanted to know more about his backstory and his real name (if that was somehow mentioned and my mind spaced out, forgive me). You gotta admit there is this enigma surrounding his character. The characters in this book didn’t catch my attention. None of them I have rooted for, or none of them appealed so much to me, which proves to be a problem when one reads a fantasy book, You have to be invested at least in the characters for your to have that driving factor to move forward no matter how plain the plot was. So there’s that.

Plot wise, Shadow and Bone was lacklustre. There was so much potential yet it was not fully explored. It fell short in all sense of the word. Like there could have been so much more, so much more. The author could have played with it, say, made it more complex, or gave it more texture. I don’t really know what’s needed for it to be amazing, all I know is I really wanted more from it. I finished the book feeling unsatisfied. I was told it gets better, but I won’t jump immediately on to the next book. I will take a break delving into Siege and Storm. I need to cleanse my palate first. So sorry but the hype was overrated. I would let my disappointment die down, or who knows I might just go ahead and read Six of Crows instead!

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The Octopus Curse by Salma Farook | Book Review

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Science would have us believe that we are nothing but cell upon cell. I disagree. We are made up of stories. The stories we hear from our mothers, the ones we tell our daughters. The tales we share with sisters and friends. The ones we never say out loud, but are heavy on our minds and run like a fever in our blood.

There are a multitude of great divides between us; race, religion, cultures, the way we dress, the languages we speak, but the stories we tell bridge us together in the universal tongue of smiles, tears, pain and laughter. They remind us that, as women, we’re all chasing similar fairy-tales.

This book is a call to celebrate the bridges, delight in our stories and to focus on the joy in our lives right now, rather than racing behind the happily-ever-after. That will come in it’s own time.

Date Published: November 1, 2019

Date Read: November 1, 2019

Publisher: SeaShell Publications

No. of Pages: 208

Genre: Contemporary Poetry

Get Your Copy Here: Amazon | Book Depository | Barnes & Noble

Ebook copy can be downloaded for free on Amazon until November 5th!

 

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It has been a while since I last read a poetry book, so much so that I crave the feeling it gives me. That feeling of calm, some sense of inner peace that I don’t get from other genres. Poetry is the language within which people are united to share a universal emotion and experience, whatever situation they find themselves in. The Octopus Curse gave the same feeling, same impact.

The Octopus Curse is such a gorgeous book. Aesthetically pleasing. You’ll notice how much effort, art and hard work were put into it. That cover alone will catch your attention. But it isn’t just a book with a pretty face, its contents are amazing as well. I specifically love the correlation of the Octopus to human’s emotions. I like that it has varied topics, most especially the ones about travelling and woman empowerment. The Octopus Curse  is a celebration and acknowledgment, as much as it is bitter reality and unmasked truths. I loved how the author were able to bring out certain topics with ease, not beating around the bush but directly saying what needs to be said, and that is an important attribute of a good poetry book.

The Octopus Curse is a mixture of poems about love, heartbreak, self discovery, woman empowerment, rape culture, immigrants, mothers and so on. While these are some great topics, I would have liked it more if the poems are divided equally into these topics. Giving great emphasis to each. Maybe putting these topics into sections in the book might have warranted a five star rating for me. The Octopus Curse isn’t divided in parts, it was a continuous one with varied topics inserted here and there, but mostly it tackles love and heartbreak. While there is nothing completely wrong with that, I just wish there was more to it. More poems on immigrants and race, more on mothers. I wish it was more well put-together. I wanted to feel and experience the full extent of it and not just fragments. I will be waiting for her next collection as I am sure this poet has all the potential to surpass her current greatness, and I’ll be there to see it!

 

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MIGRANT

“I am the bridge between continents,
The merger of languages,
The fusion of cultures.
I am the reminder that the lines
We once drew between ourselves
Were not meant to be fractures,
But only to show how our borders
Fall together like puzzle pieces”

 

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The Whisper Man by Alex North | Book Review

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In this dark, suspenseful thriller, Alex North weaves a multi-generational tale of a father and son caught in the crosshairs of an investigation to catch a serial killer preying on a small town.

After the sudden death of his wife, Tom Kennedy believes a fresh start will help him and his young son Jake heal. A new beginning, a new house, a new town. Featherbank.

But the town has a dark past. Twenty years ago, a serial killer abducted and murdered five residents. Until Frank Carter was finally caught, he was nicknamed “The Whisper Man,” for he would lure his victims out by whispering at their windows at night.

Just as Tom and Jake settle into their new home, a young boy vanishes. His disappearance bears an unnerving resemblance to Frank Carter’s crimes, reigniting old rumors that he preyed with an accomplice. Now, detectives Amanda Beck and Pete Willis must find the boy before it is too late, even if that means Pete has to revisit his great foe in prison: The Whisper Man.

And then Jake begins acting strangely. He hears a whispering at his window…

Date Published: August 20, 2019

Publisher: Celadon Books

Date Read: October 6, 2019

No. of Pages: 355

Setting: Featherbank, Horsforth United Kingdom

Genre: Mystery Thriller

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Dark, sinister and unsettling.

I went ahead reading The Whisper Man without knowing anything about it other than it is about a serial killer dubbed as The Whisper Man, in fact that is an enough reason for me to start it. And so I did, and oh boy, I wasn’t prepared for it. It gave me the creeps, and by creeps I mean all my nerves have gone haywire, my heart was beating so fast, hell I held my breath in more than one occasion. If you’re a big fan of true crime documentaries, this one might be for you. It had all the formula of a good thriller book — constantly keeps you at the edge of your seat, your nerves are tingling from the anticipation, you have occasional goosebumps and your mind is just blown how coherent everything was.

Upon finishing The Whisper Man, I was in awe by how much dedication was put into it. Everything was interconnected and made perfect sense. I don’t know if this is a good trait about me or not but I always tend to look for loose ends in a book — you know those things that hardly make sense, those things that are unnecessary and the book could definitely do away with. With The Whisper Man I hardly found loose ends, if there was any. The events made sense and interweaving with each other. A polished book – and you best believe those are hard to come by these days.

The Whisper Man is this very elaborate and intricate story filled with creepiness and heart-thumping scenes. One you could not possibly put down. It will suck you in and before you know it you’re reading until 3am eager to know who this Whisper Man is. The eerie vibe to it only added to the goodness of the book. It will capture your attention and hold it longer than you expected. This book deserves to be made into a movie, yes it is that good. An impressive debut! Alex North is an author you should definitely watch out for. This book has this inexplicable pull that you couldn’t easily get out of. They said it is a different experience listening to audiobook, I would love to try that in the future! 

The varied narration also added texture to this book. I always look forward to Jake’s part of narration, that’s where most of the creepy and eerie stuff comes in. You can’t help but be attached to the characters specially Jake’s. Jake’s misunderstood behaviour, his imaginary friend, his silence were very essential and played an enormous part in making this book much more creepy and much more inviting. I also love that it is about father and son relationships, may it be in the normal or the most twisted sense. Gahhh this book is just superbly made. I am not a wide thriller reader, but this one is just exceptional. I don’t know what else to tell you to convince you. I don’t want to go into details about this book, but just take my word for it and read it! You won’t be disappointed I promise!

 

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“If you leave a door half open, soon you’ll hear the whispers spoken.
If you play outside alone, soon you won’t be going home.
If your window’s left unlatched, you’ll hear him tapping at the glass.
If you’re lonely, sad, and blue, the Whisper Man will come for you.”
― Alex North, The Whisper Man

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THE WHISPER MAN by ALEX NORTH is an August @bookofthemonth selection! ••• Synopsis: . In this dark, suspenseful thriller, Alex North weaves a multi-generational tale of a father and son caught in the crosshairs of an investigation to catch a serial killer preying on a small town. After the sudden death of his wife, Tom Kennedy believes a fresh start will help him and his young son Jake heal. A new beginning, a new house, a new town. Featherbank. But the town has a dark past. Twenty years ago, a serial killer abducted and murdered five residents. Until Frank Carter was finally caught, he was nicknamed "The Whisper Man," for he would lure his victims out by whispering at their windows at night. Just as Tom and Jake settle into their new home, a young boy vanishes. His disappearance bears an unnerving resemblance to Frank Carter's crimes, reigniting old rumors that he preyed with an accomplice. Now, detectives Amanda Beck and Pete Willis must find the boy before it is too late, even if that means Pete has to revisit his great foe in prison: The Whisper Man. And then Jake begins acting strangely. He hears a whispering at his window… ••• 🦋 Read with the lights on, that’s what they said. Oooh I can feel this is such a great book!! Would squeeze this one this month!!! Which books did you get from @bookofthemonth? 🦋 #bookofthemonth #botm #botmbookbassador #TheWhisperMan #AlexNorth

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